Thoughts Are So ENDLESS

Have you ever thought that you'll never be in love? I have and am feeling these feelings. I know that I'll love people, but I'm not so sure about BEING IN love. I know that someday, I could find someone that I could live with and spend the rest of my life with comfortably, but I want MORE than that. Is that such a selfish thing to want? I want to love and be loved.......Hell, I'd like to learn to love myself first. I just wish that I wasn't so, so, so.......me. I think I'm a nice person who deserves some little bit of hope that somebody really wants to be with me. You know what? I want someone who will watch crappy movies (like the 4th bring it on) and will snuggle/cuddle because they know that it would make me happy. I want someone to tolerate the random shit that I do, and maybe even join in my antics. I want them to listen to some of the genres that I listen to. I want them to be able to tell me a story on a dime.........I just really want. I want someone who is okay with my family and doesn't like the same people in it. I want someone who wouldn't feel like a pansy and play barbies with my niece or my cousins. Is that so bad? Is that too much to want? If it is, then there's no point looking for love, only comfortable companionship.